getting stronger.

Guess this is my first blog :) hahaha Leen Bernardo you inspired me to make a blogspot!

So...I didn't go to school today. Stuff happened yesterday that just traumatized me to the point of breaking down crying and shaking. But it was a learning experience. Right now I'm constantly trying to find strength...strength from my friends, family, boyfriend, God. But what I didn't realize was that the strength I'm looking for is within me.

I'm going to be 18 soon, almost an adult...but I've been sheltered my whole life. Constantly being dependent on my parents and seeking protection from those around me...it's been a habit of mine to depend on everyone else. But it needs to change or I'll never survive in the real world.

I was naiive to think that everyone in this world is good and that I was truly independent...that I could actually take care of myself in a tough situation. But yesterday...it was a real eye opener.

I'm not a baby anymore and I can't cry my way out of everything anymore. I need to be proactive and take care of myself.

Anyways, that's the reason I didn't go to school today.

For you:

Love. It's not a emotion to be messed with...this past month has proved a great deal on my heart. I was hurt and felt betrayed. I had an emotional breakdown. But everyday I'm healing and...if you're reading this, I just want to let you know that I've forgiven you completely. You've given me a second chance before and recently I've realized that you truly are going to always be there for me. Thank you so much for reassuring me and even though we were far apart...you stayed by my side even when I was driving and going crazy yesterday. Haha! I love you, I can't emphasize that enough.

I'm getting stronger and I know that soon I'll be strong enough to get through any obstacle that God bestows on me.

Please keep me in your prayers :)