Contemplate.

So Mr. Baca said something today that made me think:

"Once you've loved someone, you'll love that person forever."

And it's not superficial love either. Genuine love, hard to find but so good to cherish.

I'm sick but feeling better from sleeping a little.

Til next time, kids.

Haha and p.s. : I'm not listing every detail of my day anymore, bad experience with doing that x)

it's been a really really long time...

Sorry blog, I was mad at you...but to sum up all that time I didn't write...

I'm finally half full again. My life is good :) I'm truly blessed to have so many people that love me for who I am. We all make mistakes but that's why we have to live and learn from them, right? True happiness...that's what I feel now. Putting the past behind me and move on, that's all I can really do so that it will stop haunting me. It can't and won't hurt me anymore. I was weak but now I'm strong Knowing this, I can climb mountains judging from the things I have learned so far during my seventeen years of living. To put on a real smile, to laugh at the silly-est things...it feels great.

i miss it.

Hi kiddies. It's been a while. I miss my blog, haha! This will be long!





Well, haven't updated since Thursday, but since then, life's been great :) I forget the details about Thursday, so I might as well start with Friday!


...Okay, let's just start with school since I'm drawing a blank, hahaha.


Pharm Clerk, had a sub! Then we were just writing out prescriptions, etc. I was excited that the weekend was finally here! But yeah, I had a Pre Cal test the same day so I was just studying for that.


2nd period TA, I think I made quizzes on MathType and graded/recorded stuff as usual.

Pre Cal, we had a test which I did well on! I'm so happy that I'm finally getting it now.

Snack, hung out in Henry's room. Studied for Civics. Then Henry gives me the key to get the water and then I remember...I have the water jug and Cindy doesn't! So I had to get the water at lunch for the game -_-


Civics, we had another test...I didn't do too bad. Then just worked on a Crossword puzzle that she gave us.



English, we discussed about our colors again. We're pretty much done with the subject all together so he told us our homework was the write an essay about what we had learned while doing the colors activity. So yeah. Then I was just talking to everyone..


Then we had a gym rally, woooo. Me and Karen sat at the way bottom so we couldn't see half of the time, haha. And wtheck, the sophomores won the cheering thing. That was suprising though.


During lunch, I was like "Oh shoot, I forgot my ID..." then I had to go to the Counseling Office and I got 2 demerits, booooo. Then me and Karen had to get the water, rush to the front of the gym...only to find out our bus is late, hahaha.


Then we go to Warren HS...game started at 2:45pm. Then me, Leen and Karen go to the gas station to buy Arizona's. My first time to try Green Tea Lemonade! Really good :) But yeah, then the game ended...


Got home at about 6pm. Jape and Princess were already there, so they waited for me to get ready and stuff...then we went to Beacon Light!


Haven't been to Beacon Light in forever, so it was cool to finally be back. I got depressed though...


I don't know. The past came to haunt me again and I let those scars hurt me. But I can't let them do that to me...because I don't want them to take over, to affect other things such as my studies, relationships and just everyday life. If I'm strong and let those scars heal and moreover let them go completely...those things that hurt me...they'll never come back. They'll never happen again. I just have to learn to trust, to love, to forgive. The world isn't perfect and I'm definitely not perfect. But embracing my flaws will also help me realize how much I have to change. I'm growing and learning, one day I'll be strong enough to take anything...til then, I'm still stumbling. But if there's a will, there's a way. I can't give up.


Anyways, yeah! Bible study. Arco had an assignment for his internship and he had to record himself teaching us. Haha. But yeah, I liked the message he gave us...it kind of related to my life. It was short and sweet, and yet it was also powerful, you know?


Then after, we played Sardines...omigosh, it took me, Stephen and Ryan forever to find everyone, and they ended up on the freakin roof! Haha, it was scary up there, but really beautiful. I wanna go up there again sometime...


I knocked out when I got home, haha.


Then...Saturday! Woke up bright and early so I could do my chores...at about 8:30am I cleaned the bathroom and took a shower...



But in the middle of the shower I hear "HEATHER..." Then I put on my robe real quick and all of the sudden, I see Jape on the couch holding his back. Then he's like, get my phone so I can call Lo...and get the pizza in the toaster oven so the house won't burn down. Haha, silly brother. His back went out... But yeah, thank God that he's okay now.



Got ready and then at 10pm, drove to Carson to visit my baby! Hehe. My second home<3

Sorry guys, something's wrong with my blog. It deleted most of my post..The rest of this will be updated later since my eyes are starting to hurt..

nausea.

hello beautifuls :)

Today's Wednesday! Officially the middle of the week. Weeeeee.

Well, today was...interesting.

Okay okay okay, it's late day right? But I freakin wake up at 5:30am because stupid me took a 3 hour nap last night, hahaha. My sleeping patterns are the worst. But yeah, I couldn't sleep anymore so I'm like "I might as well just get ready." Like, I even repainted my nails and tried on my Homecoming dress again and it was still 6am. So yeah got ready...

Then I ate breakfast. Eating at home in the morning feels weird now since I usually eat on the way to school. But yeah, my mommy cooked menudo! Yumm..but yeah, I took my time while I ate. Then 7am came...my favorite time in the morning because 7am=goodmorning calls!

Called that cutie pie and we talked for like 15min. He was like "Wtf?" when I told him that I was ready for school already. Haha! But yeah, then he had to go bye bye at about 7:18am. Then I went on the computer until 8:08am (I swear, I remember times like it's nothing, but I forget all the important stuff...) and left for school.

When I got to school, it was still 8:21am and I had this feeling...I forgot something. Then I look if I had my water jug for tennis, nope, not there. So I call my dad to put it in my car later. Then, as usual, I see Karen parked really close to me. I swear, we know eachother too much.

Then we walked to Pharm Clerk...pretty much I did my Pre Cal homework since I already finished the packet work. I was pretty loud too, even though I was still sleepy. But yeah, haha. Yup, we're back to sexual stuff again. Something about it being "too cold" in Wyoming. Gross.

2nd period Svenneby's TA, graded packets for Algebra B. It took sometime and finally I was done...everything was going smoothly until...

WEE WOO WEE WOO WEE WOO. The emergency bell sounds. I was like "Uhmm...false alarm?" But then I hear the attendance lady on the intercom say "This is not a drill. Teacher's lock your doors."

At first I was like, freaked out...maybe more freaked out then other people because, since I'm a TA, I'm right next to the door.. so if someone opened the door, bang, I'm dead. Hahaha. But yeah, then freakin Natividad unlocks the door and everyone got QUIET. Hahaha. The freshmen are nubs though, lol. So we were pretty much there until half of 3rd period was over.

Turns out a couple of girls were walking around campus and this guy tries to kidnap one of them. Then Natividad and Shay run after him and the guy hops the fence...I think they caught him though. That's scary though, I'm definitely walking in groups at school now.

Then it was 3rd period...well half of it anyway. Gordon lectured as usual. We have a test on Friday! Blah.

Snack, Henry's classroom was locked, blah. So I went with Grace and Laura to Bayllis' classroom and I ate my orange. I felt irriatated because I was sleepy though.

Civics, the first thing I see when I walk into the classroom is Westley's shorts. They're so freakin bright. Hahaha so I walk to my desk and stop at his and yell out "SHORTS." And then we have a full on conversation about how they're hard to match since they're like light blue. Then we turned in our notes for our Mock Congress and then did bookwork..

English, Mr. Baca talked about our color groups again. This time it was how to get along with the other colors. Haha, the Red's and Yellow's didn't seem to want to get along with eachother. But yeah, then we separated into groups according to our color. The people in my group were Karen, Ena and Anita...then we shared about why we're Blue. My explanation was, I'm definitely a Blue because I'm probably the most sensitive person you'll ever know. Karen and Anita agreed because of my random crying days at school, haha. But yeah, we're going in our groups again tomorrow as well.

Lunch, me and Karen went to our cars to eat. Then the JV girls walked to my car and we left early for practice.

Practice was okay. I felt so nauseated though, and I felt irriatated because some of the JV girls kept drinking out of my water jug. For me, it's hard to say no to people, so I let them. So by 3, I barely had any gatorade left. It's cool though, I know what to do next time. They all have to bring water next time, seriously. It's tennis practice. Haha.

Then Henry drilled us for the majority of the last hour. Then we played this lame game because everyone got confused hahaha.

After, I bought Mountain Dew with Destiny and then we went to McDonalds because she felt hungry. She bought me two apple pies though, thanks Freshman :)

When I got home, omigosh. I felt really really nauseated. I threw up after my shower...gosh, I hope I don't have the stomach flu. I have a game to play tomorrow.

But yeah, tomorrow again cuties, I'm gonna go buy my Homecoming accessories!

itchy.

hi kids!

Guess what? It's Choos-day! :)

Today wasn't so bad. I was just daydreaming a lot, so much it made my head hurt!

Well, woke up hecka early, like 4am...and couldn't sleep for a while. So I was staring at the ceiling for a good 10 minutes until I fell asleep again...woke up again at 6:14am and my brother was still in the bathroom...so I waited til 6:30am to get ready. Finally got ready and checked my right ear because I took out my plugs last night and the right ear started bleeding...hecka messed it up. So I'm not stretching out my ears anymore. Just wearing regular earrings ;)

Anyways, after I got ready, it was about 7am so I called my cutie pie :) He was ready early for once! Haha, just kidding<3

We talked for a while but them I'm like "Oh shoot...it's already 7:16am, I gotta go soon!" So I said bye bye to my baby and got my breakfast/lunch from my mommy. Then she's like "Why are you so dressed up today?" and I was like "Oh, must be the earrings" Haha. Then I headed out to school...

Got to school at about 7:33am and hung out in my car...ate the rest of my breakfast and headed on campus...

Walked to Pharm Clerk and the first thing I see is freakin Shin Buu eating chocolate. And I'm like "Ughhh I'm craving chocolate now" but then I saw that Nikki had See's Candies! So I'm like "Can I have one?" Hahaha. Yup. And then we got our Chapter Five stuff...Wagner lectured about it all period. I was just doing my homework the whole time...finished it all though! Aww but Karen is sick :( Hopefully she'll be able to play doubles with me on Thursday...

2nd period Svenneby's TA, recorded grades and sorted out papers for her 5th and 6th period. Not too eventful, I finished 20min early so I was like staring outside the door completely dazed.

Pre Cal. Omigosh, that freakin Kevin or whatever asian guy wasn't selling food today! I was starving. Hahaha. But yeah, Gordon lectured as usual. Yay, homework today -_-

Snack, bought cookies from Mr. Henry. Then I was eating and talking to Lefty and Grace.

Civics, we continued the Mock Congress. So yeah, just took notes on our discussion.

English, we separated into groups again, Red, Blue, White, and Yellow. Haha, the Red's and Yellow's were hecka hating on eachother. But yeah, the past couple days Mr. Baca talked about our strengths...this time our weaknesses! It was pretty bad because most of the stuff he told the Blue's applied to me. That's probably because I had so many b's during our survey...Yeah, I felt really bad after that, haha.

Lunch, I heated my pasta in Henry's classroom and then me and Karen headed out to Christian Club. It was pretty cool because we had Praise and Worship; Ana and Karen led it. We sang Light the Fire Again and Refiner's Fire. Then me and Karen had to leave early because we had to go to practice...

Then I met up with the JV kids and headed out to practice...

BUT when I started backing up, Carmen goes in front of my car telling me to stop. What a dork, at least go on the side of the car to tell me. But yeah, then she tells me Karen left on her freakin headlights and her battery ran out. Then I wait until Karen calls Mr. Henry and when he comes they like, revive the car. Hahaha. Then we were off...

At Cerritos College, well, Karen wasn't having a very good day. Her dollar got jammed in the parking permit box! Haha, so me and little Kelly went to the box and Kelly eventually got the dollar out. So yeah.

Then practice started. Ran to the barricade and put on sunblock, specifically Lefty's sunblock. Then I rallied with Karen and Joanna. But like, all of the sudden...my whole face and neck were itchy! So I was pretty much scratching the whole 2 hours. I went to the bathroom twice to wash my face but it wasn't working :( I think I'm allergic to it. But yeah, then me and Karen played a set against Kcee and Joanna. We won 6-4. Then we were just hanging out most of the time...but yeah.

After dropping off Leen and Destiny, I went straight to the shower! Hahaha, so I'm not itchy anymore.

Anyways, gotta do homework now! Tomorrow again :)

it's been a while.

hello cuties :)

Well this post is going to be long...haha, I haven't updated since Friday! It feels weird, haha.

I'll just summarize my weekend:

Better than I expected, haha. Friday, well, I was being emotional again.

As my 18th birthday comes closer, I realize now how hard it will be to transition from being a sheltered little girl to a strong independent woman. I mean, all of the things I have learned and am learning these recent years have been a hard obstacle to overcome. These fantasies, these things I expect...they're not all going to happen as I have planned it. It's reality. It's life. But I'm determined and motivated to get through this and learn from it. I have to face it eventually. I'm constantly trying to find that strength and I think I'm finally getting it. Wishful thinking doesn't work unless you take action. I'm not going to get into college unless I work hard. My relationships with people won't work unless I can finally learn to understand again. The tears won't stop unless I can find that strength within me. I can't hold things in anymore, it's not going to work. I have to stay positive and just have that motivation to carry me to new heights. It took me a while, 17 years, but I get it. I have to just let go of the negative stuff that has happened in my recent past and go on. Even if it comes to haunt me sometimes, it's something I know will never happen to me again. Trying to let go of my flaws, like my trust issues or opening up to people...they're going to be difficult to change. But I'm determined to let them go, they're holding me back. But yeah, I'm learning :)

Anyways, Saturday! Well the night before, Cousin Mish came to sleepover my house because she went to an Anberlin concert. We both slept on the couches in my living room. But like, when she came to my house, I hecka knocked out!

When I woke up, it was like 6:30am. Got ready for Senior Sunrise! But man, I got to school at like 7am and I got to the parking lot at like, 7:20am. I had to take like 1298730517094 U-turns because I couldn't find where to freakin park...like, at first I went by the tennis courts but then the gate going to the senior parking lot was blocked! So then I call Karen and she says that the parking's by the old ROP building. Laaame. So yeah, I was like, the 87th person to sign in. Hopefully I get my key chain, lmao.

Anyway, Senior Sunrise was lame. Haha. Everyone was just socializing and the 'leave your mark' thing was serious BS. We used stencils. STENCILS. Haha. But yeah, free food :) Then I saw Stephanie and talked to her for the first time since like, sophomore year. Then when we were walking to the bathroom, she's like "So, do you still like Kuya?" And I'm like "Holy crap, it HAS been a long time..." Hahahaha. That dork is seriously my brother. And also, I already have the best boyfriend ever <3

Okay, and then Danielle asked me for a ride to a meeting for Key Club in Imperial Hwy. I was like "I have to take the freeway there then?" Then she's like "No, Imperial Hwy's a place." Hahaha. Then we mapquested the directions in the College and Career center on campus and wrote down the directions. Then we just waited for her to change and Me, Laura, Danielle, and Jasmine Skiles headed for the meeting.

We got lost. Hahaha. I hate MapQuest. Wtheck is a slight left, seriously. But yeah, it wasn't that bad!

After I dropped them and then Laura off, I headed back home. Mish was still asleep, and it was like 10:30am. Haha, but luckily I was loud enough to wake her up haha. But if she didn't wake up, I swear I'd jump on her, haha :) But yeah, we ate mozzarella sticks and spam, even though I ate at Senior Sunrise. Yay fatties!

But yeah, I was just asking Mish about UCLA and the Anberlin concert and stuff. It was fun just catching up with her, seriously, it's been forever. Last time I saw her was after her UCLA orientation, but we didn't get to talk much.

Then like, my mom told me I had to go to the Alcalanian thing at Rynerson for my money so I was like "Man, I want my money..." Haha, and then Me, Mish, my mom, and Auntie Pat drove to Lakewood and we were just hanging out. There was food but I wasn't hungry, haha. Then Stephen comes and he doesn't look too happy :( I tried comforting him but he looked really pissed. So I let him go when he walked off. Then Mish and Charina were like "Uhh..isn't he gonna get lost? You should go look for him. Take the bike." Haha. But I was like "Maybe I shouldn't..." Then I asked Roi to come with me to find him. But then he was like "He's over there...just go to him" and then I see him walking by the playground.

We just walked around the park for a while...then I tried cheering him up, haha. I think it worked? I followed him around like a puppy and did a cartwheel and fell :) I think that would make anyone smile in like, embarrassment or something. Haha! But yeah, then we just waited for the award thingy to start and he took a nap on my lap. Then I was like "I need to pee" So I went to one bathroom and it was locked -_- So then I like, ran to the other one. Hahaha. I really needed to go. Then I went back and we were just talking...then the award thing started...

I got 25 bucks! Hahaha :)

Then we all had to leave. Then Charina and Cory were like "Oh, we should go to the mall and eat" So we all decided on Red Robin

We got home at like 5am. Then me and Mish tried getting the wireless internet to work. I found the password and then it worked, yay! And then Charina IMed Mish...they were like "After Red Robin, want to drop us off at a party?" Sooo basically, they used us for a ride. Haha, just kidding.

Then I got really hungry and was like "Uhh...we should go now" So Mish drove on the freeway for the first time in SoCal...wooo! Then we picked up the kids and drove to Cerritos Mall. Then we ate at Red Robin...it was my first time, it was really good! I want to go there again sometime :)

Then we got home around 7:30pm. So I took a shower and fell asleep without noticing it. When I came back, Mish was on her webcam with Justin haha. So yeah I was just lying down on the couch. Then my boyfriend calls and I like, run to my room haha. Then we talk for like an hour. Then when I get back, Mish has the light off and I'm like "I'm back" And she's like "Oh, I thought you went to your room to sleep!" So yeah, after that I was like wide awake. So we just talked until we both felt sleepy...

When I woke up Sunday morning, it was already 6am. So I was like "Aww crap, I'm late." Then I called Stephen and he was being grumpy. It was okay though, we got everything resolved pretty quickly. Then I pick up Berls and Laura and we're at school at exactly 7am. Then we board the bus and then we head to McDonalds! I got a sausage McMuffin meal.

Eventually we got to W Hollywood for AIDSWALK! It was pretty fun, we were there from 8:30am to like, 3:30pm. Haha. My feet started to hurt after like, 3 miles! But yeah, at about 11:00am, we had to wait 40 minutes for some sophomores to catch up with us which was lame. Haha. But yeah, I felt really accomplished when we crossed the finish line. I saw Stephen and Jenn Jenn there too with Carson Key Club, which was really random because I didn't expect to find them there since there was like, a bajillion people!

We finally got home and then I dropped off the girls, talked to my boyfriend for a while, and knocked out for like 4 hours! Then I wake up, talk to Stephen while doing my homework, and fell asleep.

Finally today! Phew. Well I woke up at 6:30am. Pretty late, haha. I kept wanting to sleep more! But yeah, got ready and packed my bag and clothes. Then call my boyfriend but the connection was being weird again so he tells me he's going to call me back later. So yeah, get my breakfast and say bye bye to mommy and leave home at 7:24am.

On the way to school, I got a call from my awesome boyfriend haha :) He called me when I was on the freeway and I'm like "Stay on! Hehe" But yeah, talked to him for about 5 minutes and then I get to school. Then I see Karen parking in front of me...I was like "What the heck, we got to school at the same time..." Weird! Haha.

Then we both walked to Pharm Clerk. I forgot we had an Abbreviations test! But yeah, they were pretty easy so I memorized them pretty quick. Then I got called up to the Counseling office to talk to my counselour but she told me to schedule another appointment. Then I got back to class and did my test. Aced it. Haha.

2nd period Svenneby, pretty busy correcting quizzes the whole period.

Pre Cal, Lecture lecture lecture. Bought gummy bears and Doritos from that asian guy. Man, I need to learn his name haha. I think it's Kevin? I personally think it's sad to be buying stuff from someone everyday and not know his name haha.

Snack, we talked about Halloween costumes. Laura has the flu :( Poor thing.

Civics, we had a Mock Congress for our Bills. Man, our Bill got owned haha.

English, Mr. Baca lectured about our "colors" again. Man, I'm an extreme Blue, 27 tallied. The other Blue's had like 10-20 but yeah. Then Catherine is like "Man Heather...you must be really nice" Then he talked more about our personalities...one of them was "Blue's think it's hard to say no" and I'm like NOOO WHY IS THIS PSYCHOLOGY STUFF SO TRUE...haha, but yeah.

Lunch, talked to Lefty about her boy problems! Haha :)

Tennis, it was tiring. And so are my fingers.

That's all for today kids. Long post! Mannn my fingers and eyes hurt now. Haha! Until tomorrow<3

self-esteem.

hello sunshines :)

Today...was just fine. It's Thursday, Friday Eve. Woke up around 6am and slept in until 6:30am. Got ready, I felt really lazy haha. Then around 7am called up my boyfriend for my daily goodmorning calls. He was talking to his mom a lot of the time, for money and all that stuff haha x) Then he had to go around 7:14am. So then I just packed my bag, got my breakfast, said bye bye to mommy and left for school...

I was early and got to school around 7:31am and ate the rest of my breakfast. Then I realize...oh shoot, I forgot my wallet at home! My IDs are in there so I knew I had to get them somehow. Since it was already 7:37am, I knew I couldn't go home to get it so I called up my mom and she said that my dad would drop it off. Then I walked to Pharm Clerk.

I don't know...I felt weird when walking to my class. I felt irriatated at nothing in particular and I think I was like...putting myself down and being hard on myself. It was weird because I'm usually not like that. But yeah, I just let it go and walked to my class...

Pharm Clerk, studied for our Trade/Generic test and then took it. Aced it! Then I finished my homework. I didn't really talk much because I was still feeling down. So yeah, Ms. Wagner just went over the homework problems.

2nd period Svenneby's TA, I used MathType to make the quizzes for Geometry H. Then I graded and recorded Algebra B's quizzes. At this point I was feeling a little better...

Pre Calculus, Gordon answered homework questions 3/4 of the period and lectured the rest of the time.

Snack, I went to Svenneby's classroom because I forgot my English book. Then I went to Henry's classroom and then me, Karen, Laura and Raven went to Ms. Ramirez's room to sign up for Senior Sunrise. Then me and Laura went to my locker...then the bell rang, haha.

Civics, got back our tests, got an A :) Then I corrected our Bill because Westley typed it up last night. Haha 'Trying to stop teens drinking is like trying to stop AIDs" Hahaha yeah...and then we just did bookwork the rest of the period.

English, studied for our quiz. I studied for the wrong thing last night! Stupid Anglo-Saxons...so I asked Kuya what the chapter was about and he didn't know...wow, that helped haha...Then I asked Catherine what it was about and she clarified some stuff for me. I did horrible on the quiz though...it's okay, I'll do better on tomorrow's quiz! Then I got a call slip from the office saying to get my stuff...

Then when lunch just started, I went to the front office and got my wallet and then headed out to the Key Club meeting. Unfortunately I couldn't stay for any of the meeting since I had an away game :( But yeah, I just asked Eric Tang to tell me about it later...

After I just headed to my car, changed and ate and then headed for the bus...waved at Henry and then met up with the other tennis girls. Then we're like "Why's there only one bus?" because the girls volleyball team was there too...turns out we were sharing the bus. So we boarded and me and MY Kelly sat in the front. But then freakin Okomoto made us sit in the waaaaaaaay back. It was really really hot...

By the time 1:30pm came, Cindy and Claudia weren't on the bus! So they went with Henry, I think. So yeah. Then we were on our way to Paramount High School. I bothered Kelly most of the time haha :)

When we got there, we were like "Whoa, they got a new stadium" and stuff. But the bad thing about that was that there was a lot of construction so instead of cutting through the field to get to the courts, we had to go all the away around the freakin thing...

Finally we got there and ran our figure 8's. Then some of the girls didn't have water so the 3 Muskateers went on campus to buy water from the vending machines. Then we tried finding some food vending machines but we couldn't find any. Then we just went back to the courts...

I was sleepy because it was sooo hot, haha. Me, Karen and Allyn were just sitting reading magazines and on our cellphones. Then we went on campus again to buy more water...

Then me and Karen talked about her love life. Haha Karennn ;) But yeah, then Henry is like "Heather and Karen, play a set" because we were losing...

Me and Karen's strategy is "Hit the ball" hahaha and "Don't get bageled!" But we did anyway :( Oh well.

Then we watched Raven's game and ended at like 6pm. Then we boarded the bus again...

Stuck in traffic and I was starving! So I called up my dad and he said he'd cook me something :) So yeah, we got to school around 6:30pm. Dropped off Leen and then headed home...

When I got home, my dad had sardines and hard boiled eggs ready for me to eat... I was happy! Then I ate and took a shower and now I'm hear writing this.

Wow, my eyes are hurting now...I'll write again soon cuties, keep a story in your heart!

grumpy.

hi kiddies :)

Well, today wasn't the best day of the week, even though it's Wednesday...and late day...and the middle of the week.

Last night talked to my boyfriend from 2:00am to 3:30am and then after that I couldn't sleep until like 5am. Haha, and then I had a weird dream about aliens that looked like grizzly bears...Yeah, I don't know either :)

But yeah then I felt my phone vibrate because I have an alarm at 7am. Called Stephen but he was running late! So I texted him while I was getting ready. Got ready and took my time...

But I took too much time, by the time I was finished, it was 8:15am! Pretty much rushed to get my stuff in my car...

Then I rushed to get to school. I now know that I always have to keep my eyes on the road. Like seriously, I could've gotten into a car accident, haha.

I got to school at 8:30am. Yes, that's when the second bell rings for class to start. So I was like "Dengit, that's my 2nd tardy..." But...

Ms. Wagner wasn't there! And the sub was late. And everyone was waiting outside. I got lucky, haha. Karen and Giselle were like "Where were you Heatherrr?" And yeah, I think at that point I was relieved but really grumpy because of this morning. Then the sub came and we went inside the classroom...

Pretty much that wasted 15min of the class period. So then we had the rest of the time to do our homework. It's really difficult, but I finished half of the packet. Giselle was being mean! Haha, just kidding. She copied my homework :( Do your own homework! Haha.

Then 2nd period I recorded some late work and then helped Ms. Svenneby make the Chapter 3 tests for Geometry H. I managed to finish some of the diagrams but they're so complicated to make. But yeah pretty much that's what I did the whole period...

Hmm then Pre Calculus, Gordon pretty much lectured the whole time. I didn't get cookies today, haha. But I was still really hungry...and yeah at this point I was really grumpy but then I checked my phone at the end of the period...Stephen texted me and it cheered me up :)

Snack, went to Henry's class. Then Lefty asked me if I can go with her to the bathroom so she could change her clothes...so I went. Then we went back to Henry's class and then I bought a fruit by the foot and cookies from Laura. Then we just talked about AIDswalk (Everyone go!)

Civics, we couldn't go to the computer lab today so we went to the library to write our complaints to the congress representative for our city...Me, Sarah and Westley all wrote about graffitti. We all live in different cities so it was okay right? Haha. But yeah, we were just working on that the whole time. Then Westley started singing Disney songs hahaha. And then Sarah tried to make Super Cow, it was pretty cute! But yeah, it was alright.

English, I forgot my pen! So I had to borrow one from Kuya. Laaaaame. But yeah, we finished our notes for Beowulf and then Baca gave us another homework assignment for tonight...yay -_- But yeah...

Lunch, I went straight to my car and ate my pizza slice because I was starving! Haha. Then I picked up Lefty, Destiny and Grace and we went to get water for the water jug...

It was so funny, me and Lefty couldn't get the jug out of the sink so we had to ask Destiny and Grace to do it for us. Haha. Then we headed out to...

Cerritos College for practice! Pretty much we changed and then went to the bathroom...it was stinky! Haha. But yeah when we got back, Henry made us run to the barricade and back. We don't usually run it, but some of the JV girls were practicing with us...

Pretty much we rallyed most of the time. But all of the sudden...I started feeling itchy on my neck and forehead. It bothered me the whole time. Everybody was like "Are you okay?" But yeah I couldn't stop scratching. So it just wasn't my day today, haha. I took a lot of water breaks so I could check if my neck was red and we went to the bathroom again...I washed my face and neck...it felt better after that. Then me and Karen vs. Raven and Lefty doubles match! We laughed a lot because everyone was being retarded. We didn't finish the match too. Haha.

Then me, Lefty, Leen, and Destiny headed back to Gahr because I forgot my English book in my locker. Then we stopped by the ASB room so Leen could get her check and then I dropped them home.

Now I'm at home, itch-free and lots of homework! So yeah, just an off-day for me today. Hopefully Thursday will be better! Tomorrow again cutie pies<3

looking back.

hihi :)

Today's Tuesday! Tuesdays are always good because the next day is Wednesday and Wednesday's like the middle of the week/late day!

Haha, but yeah. Woke up at 5am thinking it was already 6am but then I checked the clock so I was like "Yay, I get to sleep more!" and slept until 6:30am. Slowly got ready...like really slow. Haha, I was still sleepy even though I slept early! Gave my daily goodmorning call to my boyfriend but the connection was being retarded. I didn't get to say bye bye so I just texted him on the way to school...

Omigosh I was sooo late in leaving the house today because I kept forgetting stuff inside my house. But I still got to school at like 7:39am, parked next to Karen and walked with her to Pharm Clerk..

We got our grades for Pharm Clerk! Wagner changed my grade to an A :) Then she just talked about the chapter we were reading about the whole time. I wasn't really listening because I was starting my homework, haha. But, oh gosh, for the second time in a row we talked about something sexual...

Viagra. May I say more? Haha.

But yeah just a really random period, I only finished one page of the homework though :(

2nd period Svenneby's TA, graded late work and recorded a lot of stuff. Wasn't too eventful.

Pre Calculus, bought some cookies from the same asian guy as yesterday, haha. They were delicious. But yeah, the first half of the period Gordon answered homework questions...I had some because I did my homework last night :) Yay! But yeah then it was just lecture lecture lecture...no homework tonight!

Snack I turned in my green paper to meet with my counselour and headed to Henry's classroom. Haha, I bought like two things from Laura...I think it was 100 calorie Doritos and a Rise Krispy. Haha, I'm a fatty. Then I think I was talking about Tetris, hahaha.

Civics, we went to the computer lab! Haha, I got in trouble because I was playing Solitaire when we were supposed to be researching for our Bill thing. Well, I already researched my stuff so that's why I was playing! And I was waiting for Roberts to give back our outline too...but SOMEBODY forgot to turn it in and he had it the whole time. Haha, just kidding Westley. Speaking of Westley, he kept saying "Don't trippp" and I'm like, "No, Westley." Then me and Sarah made fun of him most of the period. Oh, and I drew Sarah a cow! Super Cow to be exact. Haha.

English, we voted for the 'Bests' for the senior class. Then Baca lectured about how to take notes because, apparently, we don't know how to take them. And then we took notes on the Celts...pronounced "Kelts" according to him, haha. I brought a pen today! I was very proud of myself :)

Lunch I heated up my Hot Pocket and headed to Christian Club with Grace..

When I got there, Ana asked us to introduce ourselves again. Then she asked if we could share our blessings. Everyone's so quiet! But yeah Ana gave us some encouragement...

Though I heard this message before, it was nice hearing it again. She told us to evaluate our walks with God and to contemplate what kind of Christian we are...are we a Sunday Christian? A seasonal Christian? Or one who practices Christianity everyday?

I for one, try my best to practice my religion in everyday life. I was born and raised a Christian and taught to love your neigbor as yourself...to want to give rather then receive. To be kind and humble, in other words.

Recently, however, I've turned my back on God. When all those tough times hit me I would be like "I'm a good person right? I try to be a good daughter, sister, friend and girlfriend but it seems like God is trying to punish me" And that's when God started to gradually fade away again. I would shun the world and let myself cry and not let anyone invade my personal bubble. My heart throbbed badly and I just needed God back in my life again.

What I realize now is instead of hating God for the obstacles he's bestowed on me, I should be counting my blessings. Remembering those good memories from summer and to just know that I have a lot of people who love me and will always be there for me. I was blind but now I can see. I was lost and now I'm found. Gradually, I'm finding myself being my old self again. I'm laughing so much more and I'm finally finding the strength to go on with the struggle and ultimately to overcome the hardship. I know that, through God, everything is going to be better in the end, that my life is only beginning. I'm still learning. I love God, and I feel I should appreciate him more because he deserves so much more then what we give him. That's why I want to be an everyday Christian.

But yeah, then I went home, changed, and headed to Cerritos College!

We had a Home game against Warren. I got there at exactly 2pm and Henry was like "Heather, where were you?" And I kinda gave my puppy dog face and said "I had to go home..." Then he was like "Okay." Hahaha and then Raven was like "I soooo would have gotten yelled at if I were you..." And yeah, I just rallyed with Karen until the game started...

We did great! 14-4 I think? But yeah, we just cheered for the girls. I swear, we went to the bathroom like 10947901384098 times, haha. It was pretty random too, we talked about Twilight, phones, tampons, and more. Haha! But yeah, MY Kelly was like saying "So I read your blog...you write every single detail of your day" :) Yup, put that in too Kelly<3

After I dropped off Destiny and Lisa and then headed home. Then I changed and at 6pm biked to Destiny's house! Haha, it was fun, but Destiny had to go somewhere so she couldn't bike with me. It was okay though, I biked for about 40min :)

Now I'm home and starving! Haha, tomorrow again cuties!

headache.

Hello :)

So today was pretty much just another Monday. Not really slow but just...Monday. Haha. I was still drained from the weekend...woke up around 6am and got ready for school...I was really tired.

Called Stephen as usual, haha my daily goodmorning calls :) Said some random stuff because I was too tired to think...then he had to go around 7:12am. Fixed my bag up and put my bag, books and clothes in my car. Got my breakfast and Hot Pocket for lunch, said bye bye to mommy and headed out...

Tried to eat my sausage and rice on the way to school but suprisingly there wasn't any traffic on the freeway today! But I managed to eat a little before turning left on Artesia haha. I actually got to school 10 minutes early! Before I parked I saw Karen getting out of her car, haha random. Parked my car and walked with Karen to Henry's classroom. I forgot what we were talking about, haha. Karen was studying for the Pharm Clerk abbreviations test but then she kept on talking, hahahaha. Oh then I was like "OH SHOOT I forgot my Hot Pocket inside my car!" and then Karen is like "OH SHOOT I forgot my pudding in my car!" Lmao. But yeah then the first bell rang...

Me and Karen walked to first period Pharm Clerk. We were pretty much studying for the test for like 15min. Then we took the test. I think I did really well on it :) But yeah, after we just had free time. I was talking to Giselle and she was reading Running with Scissors...

Oh gosh. Then she let's me read this one sex scene part and it's really really graphic. The thing is we thought it was a girl and a guy but then the guy says at the end something about "I didn't know you were gay" and then we're like WTF IT'S GUY ON GUY? Pharm Clerk is the grossest period ever, seriously. Haha.

2nd period Svenneby's TA...graded and recorded Chapter 2 tests and Basic Skills quizzes. Busy busy the whole period. Finished most of the work, man I wonder what the 1st period TA does...because I've been getting a lot of work lately. Haha.

Pre Calculus, I was hungry! Paid back Berls a quarter for the cookies on Friday and bought gummy bears from this one asian guy...then Gordon answered homework questions...then I turned in my homework.. and then he just lectured the whole time.

Snack, we just hung out in Henry's classroom. Bought a Kudo's bar from Laura and talked to Grace...pretty much it.

Civics, we got our transcripts and headed to the MPR and Natividad talked about college and stuff. That's when my head started to hurt really badly. I'm bad at this kind of stuff, talking about college and all of that. I get overwhelmed easily. But yeah, it cleared up a lot of stuff I didn't understand so that was good.

English, bookwork the whole time. Borrowed a pen from Kuya again. Haha, I really need a pen! But yeah, finished the work and had 15min left so I just read over the booklet thing I got from the assembly.

Lunch, I went to the Counseling Office to get one of those green papers to schedule an appointment with my counselour. Then I dropped by Henry's classroom and saw Lefty there. BTW LEFTY YOU NEED SLEEP. Then I ate some of her food...it needed sour cream, haha. Then I went to my car...

I forgot my shoes at home so I had to drop by. Oh, and then remember how I forgot my Hot Pocket? When I got to my car, it was already cooked for me! Haha, my car is a microwave when it's out in the sun too long :) So yeah, ate while I drove to my house, changed, and headed out to...

Cerritos College! Yeah, my head was hurting like crazy...but yeah I got through it. Rallyed a lot...I notice that either I rubbed off of Karen or Karen rubbed off me because Karen kept saying "Ay!" every time she missed the ball or it hit the net. And then I noticed I say "Haha, you're gay" a lot. Oh geez, haha. But yeah, not too eventful.

When I got home, I went straight to the bathroom, cleaned the bathtub and took a bubble bath so my head would stop hurting! It worked :) I didn't take a long one though because I started to get pruny.

Geez, I have homework tonight. Lame! I better go do it now though. Tomorrow again! Bye bye ;)

revival.

Hi :)

This post makes up for yesterday and Friday, I was barely home most of the time! But yeah.

Friday:

TGIF! I was happy. Woke up, got ready for school. Texted Stephen because he said he couldn't talk on the phone because he had to drop his brother off early. Then I left home to school..

Buzzzzzzzz. Haha, my phone was in my lap so I kind of jumped. That dork calls me telling me that he's bored because he went to school too early. I was just leaving for school and he was like "Oh nevermind, I'll just talk to you later" and I'm like "Noooo talk to me, it'll be fun :)" Haha! So yeah, talked to him all the way to school and then told him to have fun with his Leadership movie night that night.

Then I pretty much got to school when the bell rings. Got to Pharm Clerk. Wagner messed up my grade! She forgot to record one of my assignments. But whatever, I'll show it to her on Monday. Then we studied for our Trade/Generic test but..

Oh gosh, Pharm Clerk was so traumatizing. She was talking to us about penis piercings. And she drew a penis on the board x) I was like "Uhhhhhhhh...can we just take the test now?" And then she told us she once had a homosexual student that had one and the bar that was like...stuck through it? It ripped! And the bar went through his urethra so while it was healing and he needed to pee, the pee would go through the two holes where the piercing was. Gross.

Then there was 2nd period Svenneby's TA. Recorded a buttload of grades. But I was doing it out of the goodness of my heart, haha. She appreciated it a lot.

3rd period Pre Calculus, lecture lecture lecture as usual. Hahaha I was making my sad face because I was STARVING. Mr. Gordon made fun of me :( But then Berls let me borrow a quarter so I could buy cookies! But yeah, I actually get Pre Calc noooow!

Snack, Japanese Club meeting! Karen paid for my membership fee because I forgot it again. And Ms. Suzuki wants me to help with the Homecoming decorations but I don't know because of tennis...but yeah. I got there late so I didn't know what was going on x) Then I walked with Eric Tang to our 4th periods.

Civics, Ms. Roberts checked notebooks and we watched School House Rock...then we did a worksheet.

English was interesting. We took a survey kind of thing...we have to choose one word a-d that best describes myself. I got mostly b's...so my color was blue, pretty much a humanitarian, always caring for others, etc. But yeah, it was fun and it took up the whole period.

Lunch, Karen and I went to change and eat in my car. Then we went on the bus...

Me and Patty played DS on the way, we played Cooking Mama 2 and I PWNED him. Hahaha...then we finally got to...

Lynwood! Karen and I won all three sets 6-0, 6-1 6-0. In the middle of second set, I hear someone call out "Heather Daphne..." Freakin Jace and Justin came to hang out x) But yeah it was goodtimes, afterwards we were just hanging out and at the end we watched Destiny's game. Unfortunately she lost. But we still won 17-1. I was soo tired on the way home...

When I got home nobody was there so I went to Jace's house and when I got there Jace and Justin were playing pool so I was just watching them for a few minutes...then we waited for Auntie to cook chicken nuggets and we ate..then Charina and I went to Charina's to pick up her jacket and then...

Shockwave practice! It was pretty cool, that was my second time at FCFC. I subbed in for Sel for the cardboard skit practice, haha. I was also supposed to be in Miguel and Mary's performance as a drunk girl (Haha, that wouldn't be a challege for me :D) but yeah...I got home at like 11:30pm.

Saturday:

Woke up, called my baby, cleaned the bathroom...

Drove freeway long-distance for the first time! Went to that dork's house...waited for him to finish his homework...ate...waited...wrestled with him...waited for him to take a shower...then...

SHOCKWAVE!

It was a really uplifting experience since I just recently found God back in my life again.

When we got there, it was already packed! We signed in and then we were just waiting for people. I saw Karen, Leen, Cindy and MY Kelly :) That was awesome. And yeah we were just waiting to get seated. I was FREEZING. Haha. But yeah finally we got seated but then me and Stephen were next to the freakin window. But yeah, at least we were seated.

Finally it started. First there was a video of all the Catalyst Crew which was really funny.

Then after that, a couple of the FCFC youth did some..rapping. Haha. All I have to say is woooooow.

After was Miguel and Mary, they did really well! I have a video of it at the end of this post.

After that was Cathy Nguyen, good as always :)

Then the Praise Band played a couple of songs and after..

Dave spoke. He talked about Jesus' sacrifice to us and giving up rather then holding onto something that has been acting as a burden/temptation and to write that thing on a sheet of paper. Mine isn't too personal so I'll share it.

Selfishness. It's been holding me accountable for a lot of things recently. It has never been a part of me, not a part of my character. But now it is and I don't want it. Nobody wants to be selfish but I catch myself several times having this desire to have things my way. That's why I don't want to hold onto this sin, so ugly and undesirable. I want to be the understanding person I was before. The old me. That's what I've wanted for a while now. The old me.

So we pinned our sins on the cross. Going back to my pew, I had this odd sensation in my chest. When we were singing praise, I was tearing up without knowing why. God's was working within me, I know it. I could feel his presence.

But yeah, and then Shockwave ended, the boys took pictures with Cathy, Gabe and Miguel. I'll post them up for you guys!

It was really fun, I liked it a lot. Too bad I can't go to Expressions though :(

After Stephen, David, Jojo, Aaron and Vince and I went to In N Out. I had to hurry though because it was already 11:30. Then I went to drop off Stephen back to FCFC but nobody was there! Turns ou Dean went to Albertacos with Jason so I had to drop him off at Albertacos.

But yeah, I pretty much got home at 12:30. KOed!

Sunday:

Well, today I went to Jape's half-marathon and then In N Out again. I'll try posting pics soon!

My weekend in a nutshell :) Tomorrow again!

crazy crazy crazy.

Konnichi wa :) Thursday today! TGIF tomorrow!

Today was greeeeeat. Haha.

Woke up at like 4:30am because I had a bad dream about what happened on Monday...called my boyfriend and he reassured me that nobody was gonna get me. Eventually I fell asleep...

Then I woke up at 6:30am. Called him up again and we talked for like 30min. Then I was like "Oh shoot I still have to get ready". So I said bye to my baby and got ready for school...

I ended up getting to school at like 7:39am. Man! But I wasn't late haha! Karen gave me my letter of recommendation because she printed it out for me. Her printer's retarded so the letters get printed out in pink. But that's okay, I like pink :) Haha! But yeah, then we just watched Outbreak again...I was studying for Civics though. Haha.

Passing period was so random because I went to the bathroom and saw Karen and Rachel both there and then they started talking about asian boys so I'm like "Uhhhhhh okay I'm gonna leave now..." Hahahaha.

Then 2nd period Ms. Svenneby just gave me a lot of things to be recorded. I finished most of it...well I thought I did but then she gave me more and more and more things to be recorded. It was okay though.

3rd period Gordon lectured for 30min and then we had the rest of the time to do homework...I actually get Pre Cal now though! I'm happy.

Snack came, I saw cousin Josh at his hangout spot! Finally! Haha, but I didn't hang out with him...tomorrow I will though. Went to Henry's class and hung out with the tennis girls. I forgot what we talked about x)

4th period Civics we had a test, wasn't too hard! Aced it! I think.

5th period English we basically just let other people read our resumes. Karen made fun of my name for my letter of recommendation "Rainy Sunshine". Haha and hers was like Rose Heart or something...yeah, you're gay Karen :) Then I was just talking to Kuya (John Chua, haha) and I read his letter. Then I took out my phone and started texting...then I realized I didn't have Kuya's number so he gave it to me and then all of the sudden I get a call and it says 'Withheld' and I'm like "What the eff, somebody's calling me..." And Kuya's like "Haha oh really? GOTCHA." Then I see him holding his phone. I'm like "Yeah, thanks -_-" Haha.

At lunch I had a Key Club meeting. Before that I went to Svenneby's class to get my Nestea because I accidently left it there. Then I went to Hallback's class and then we had the meeting...just talked about community service and all that and got our UNICEF boxes (they're so cute, haha!). Then we kinda tried to practice the cheer thing but it didn't work out, as expected. Haha. The meeting ended at 1:20pm.

Then I got out of school and took Carmen, Lefty and Destiny to Cerritos College. We get there and then I'm like "Okay...I'm gonna change, get out Lefty" and then she doesn't get out and closes the door when I open it. They're so mean to me! Hahaha. Then I try to call Stephen but Lefty starts yelling at me and I'm all laughing so he hangs up because it's so loud. Hahaha.

Then Destiny and I went to the bathroom. I was like "Can we take a really long time?" But then I regretted it because by the time we got back, everybody was running already! But yeah, then we stretched out and then...

We played sets! Yaaaay. Only up to 3 though. Karen was my doubles partner! First set we played Henry and Cindy...no suprise, we lost 0-3. Then second set we played Shanon and Leen. Omg too bad Karen's my doubles partner because we laughed A LOT. Hahahaha. But yeah we actually won 3-2.

I got tired though because the whole upper half of my body was hurting so I sat around for a while. Then I served with some of the girls and then rallyed with Karen, Raven and Lefty. Practiced ended at like 4pm.

Called my dork! Then he kind of wasn't responding when I said "Hello?" So I went to the park near my house and I called him again...he told me he was driving the freeway to Cerritos! I have such a crazy boyfriend, that was his first time driving the freeway!!! He said he got kinda lost but then found his way back again, thank God. Then he said he was stuck in traffic so I was like "I gotta pee but I don't wanna go home" so I got off the phone and drove to Walmart! Haha, used the restroom and drove back to my neighborhood...then I see Stephen taking a left haha! Then when I enter the neighborhood, we saw eachother and he waved. What a dork. Haha!

But yeah, we were just hanging out on a bench while he talked about his first freeway experience. Then we walked around the park and talked about random stuff...I was really happy since I haven't seen him since Saturday. But then he had to go because he still had a lot of things to do...so he picked up the Guest Contract for Carson's Homecoming and went bye bye :'( Saturday I'll see him again though!

Then I got home, ate, and then my brother's like "Wanna bike while I jog later?" So yeah, now I'm just waiting for him to come back home...

The weekend's almost here, I'm excited. Sel's Bday BBQ tomorrow and SHOCKWAVE Saturday! Woo it's gonna be fun.

Tomorrow again kiddies! :)

happy wednesday!

Hello! :)

<-- Check it out, my dad bought me my PINK BIKE yesterday!

Well today was alright, haha.



My morning started off kinda slow haha. Woke up at 7am, called up that dork! He said he was still getting ready and would call back. Poor thing didn't get any sleep last night -_- Well me either...haha. I let him take a nap at like 12:30am last night and promised him I would wake him up at 1:30am. Thing is, when I call him, of course, he doesn't answer. Called him again...and again...and again. Next thing you know, it's 3:40am. Then he answers and I'm like "OH THANK GOD." Haha, he got mad at me though! His fault for sleeping on his phone! Wooo 93 missed calls, new record :)


Anyway, then I call him again because he doesn't call back and it's almost 7:30am. Talk to him for like 5 minutes and then he says "Oh look, Janine!" Haha and then I'm like "Say hi to her for me!" and then he has to leave...then I hang up and get ready for schoooool.


Takes me til 8am to get ready and stuffs...say bye bye to mommy and then eat chicken nuggets for breakfast! Mmm...then it's like 8:15am and I'm like "Oh shoot, I have to go!"


Drive to school and when I'm exiting the freeway on Studebaker, I hear my phone vibrate...it's Karen. Haha, she's like "Oh you're not here yet?! I thought I saw your car" Haha. Dork! When I finally park my car, the first bell already rang...


But I get to first period Pharm Clerk on time! Say hi to everyone, get the stuff I missed from yesterday and we watch that one old movie Outbreak. The monkey's so cute! Haha.



Then second period...Svenneby's TA. Didn't do much, just highlighted some stuff on the kid's progress reports. Haha, so they were like talking about phones and then Ms. Svenneby was like "I have a Chocolate.." and then they kept talking for about two minutes and then this girl was like "Wait...I thought we were talking about food!"


Third period Pre Cal, lecture lecture lecture


Snack, went to the office to get my Guest Contract signed but Ramona wasn't there...then I went to Henry's classroom and we were just talking about SHOCKWAVE! This Saturday wooo :)


Fourth period Civics, reviewed for test...


Fifth period English is always random. Haha. Mr. Baca went from recommendation letters to flunking freshman English to adults beating kids to nuns. Wooooow. Haha.


Lunch, went to the office again and Ramona still wasn't there so I gave my Guest Contract to Evelyn...yay I officially can go to Carson's Homecoming :)


Then I went to Henry's classroom again and saw Destiny and Lefty there. We were just chillin for most of lunch and Lefty let me taste her rice with sour cream. Haha, it was good! Then me, Destiny and Grace left for Cerritos College where...


Tennis. Haha. Ummmm...yeah, don't wanna look back on the speech. But it got better after because Henry let the 3 Muskateers drill with the rest of the girls...and then we played a set: me & Shannon vs. Cindy & Anita. Me and Shanon won 6-4 :) So yeah...we ended practice early. Then I dropped off Destiny...


Then hoooooome. My head hurts so bad right now!

So yeah, that was my day. Yay it's Wednesday, halfway done with the week! I'll update again soooooon.

Keep a story in your heart!

getting stronger.

Guess this is my first blog :) hahaha Leen Bernardo you inspired me to make a blogspot!

So...I didn't go to school today. Stuff happened yesterday that just traumatized me to the point of breaking down crying and shaking. But it was a learning experience. Right now I'm constantly trying to find strength...strength from my friends, family, boyfriend, God. But what I didn't realize was that the strength I'm looking for is within me.

I'm going to be 18 soon, almost an adult...but I've been sheltered my whole life. Constantly being dependent on my parents and seeking protection from those around me...it's been a habit of mine to depend on everyone else. But it needs to change or I'll never survive in the real world.

I was naiive to think that everyone in this world is good and that I was truly independent...that I could actually take care of myself in a tough situation. But yesterday...it was a real eye opener.

I'm not a baby anymore and I can't cry my way out of everything anymore. I need to be proactive and take care of myself.

Anyways, that's the reason I didn't go to school today.

For you:

Love. It's not a emotion to be messed with...this past month has proved a great deal on my heart. I was hurt and felt betrayed. I had an emotional breakdown. But everyday I'm healing and...if you're reading this, I just want to let you know that I've forgiven you completely. You've given me a second chance before and recently I've realized that you truly are going to always be there for me. Thank you so much for reassuring me and even though we were far apart...you stayed by my side even when I was driving and going crazy yesterday. Haha! I love you, I can't emphasize that enough.

I'm getting stronger and I know that soon I'll be strong enough to get through any obstacle that God bestows on me.

Please keep me in your prayers :)